I'm sorry about this bullshit again.

[xSalashawty]

But I keep getting subliminal life threats one way or another.  I don't know. Bipolar? Moodswings? Likely. Let's cut down to the chase.

I'm on a hiatus, like I've been doing every interval of 2 months. Half's due to homework and basketball. A quarter is to social networking, FB so I can trick people into thinking I'm okay, Twitter so I don't deal with backtracking posts later, and YT for sanity. Another quarter is from stress. Every so often, I'll have a set of dreams I can remember at the end. Usually, the more dangerous ones happen somehow. (Earliest I can remember being devestating is me being a criminal and shooting wrecklessly. That then happened in the Philippines, where most of my family lives.) Those were just preminitions. Now, they're active again. Except I don't need to be in REM sleep to happen. I can get a sharp sense and be like 'Oh fuck, something is going to happen' (Think about a rare Geico commercial and have a 3 second delay followed by the same commercial; get the sense something will happen and end up having an almost successful car robbery on my dad's truck.) These are getting more intense. Fucks up my life, and I'm not bringing it here. Have a dream about fire? Fire by 8 poverty apartments and Cario. Have a dream about driving against your will? Get told that there was a seven year old girl who drove for her drunk dad and get asked if my dad can drink a little.


Like I said, not bringing this here. If I sacrifice something I love for the sake of getting off my mind is what's best, I'll do it. If there's a constant thought, I'll try getting it out (aka what I've been doing with my friends. One had this same situation and in a perilous state.) If I end up getting something critical for attention, I'll keep it mind first. I'm not attention whoring. If you feel this is, ignore me and we won't have a conflict. I'm fine with disagreement, just don't be a bitch about it please. 

[Tanassy]

Well, it's not like you've been hugely active...

But I have no reason to think you're lying. I hope things get better...

[jkid101094]

I hope things get better...

[HereAndThere]

I hope things get better...